Entry 1069
I
am like a house divided against itself!
My yoni purrs contently when
she contains him, or when he speaks intimately to her with his silken tongue.
But my brain whirls with questions. How is it that he plays me like a familiar
instrument? How does he know how to stroke me till I'm ready to swoon? Thank
the Founders I have no useful intel for him. I would tell him anything just to
keep him in my bed. He is a tremendous threat that must be eliminated. I can not allow him to compromise the Chair of
the Guardian Council. He insists he only
wants to serve my interests and keep me happy. How can I be happy with my yoni in a constant state of distress? I
need to end this fantasy and return alone
to the Capital! I need to return to the Chair of 1st Councilor.
Entry
1088
Our
afternoon trysts are the perfect anecdote to my tiresome suspicions. But my
brain only shuts off when he's between my thighs or plunged to the hilt in my
backside. Stars, he's big! I should leave and allow my people to wrap up their
debrief. Stars, who am I kidding? They finished their work ten days ago.
They're just waiting for me to wake up and pull his member out of me. Honestly,
Celestine there will always be other men to play with! Let him go and let's get
back to our real life.
Entry
1091
I
cannot abandon him. I need to figure a
way to work him into my entourage; make him a personal adviser or something.
Who am I kidding? He's supposed to be dead!
Entry
1092
What
if I claim he is a fake Cenobite? Yes, my lover dresses like a Cenobite monk.
If I simply come clean that he's a fraud, then the mystery becomes about the
fashion statement, not the policy breach. Who
he is less important than what he is,
namely the first man to dress like a Cenobite monk. Founders in Heaven, imagine
the scandal! He bucks protocol by wearing clothes; not just any garments, he is
covered from neck to feet in black, like a Cenobite monk. It could start a
fashion trend. Everyone in the Collegium will want their own imposter! I could even have a companion female Cenobite
on his other arm. They'll think it is a three way! The style watchers will have
a field day. Stars Above! I could make this work.
